Ive already uploaded pictures from Nora's wedding to facebook but I will be updating it into this blog when I feel like it k.

As for now, I miss this guy right down here.

Kekeke. We seldom meet nowadays cos he is busy with work while Im busy with my desktop. Huhuhu. We get to meet only once/twice a week? But its ok, because kalau dah jelak, saper susah? Saye jugak. Kukukuku. ( aku bual mcm pham )

Btw, there is a stalker who stalks me ALL the time. Hello asshole, please leave me n mind your own business cos NOTHING, letme repeat, NOTHING can break us apart. Hanye Allah aje yang menentukan so YOU better get out of my life. YOU are no one special who can determine my happiness OR even predict my future. So shhh, EFF off. I do not use vulgarities that often but I will because YOU are too annoying for a human being. IF anything happens to me n Amran, then maknenye, dah bukan jodoh. But even Allah suruh berusaha so, we are gonna make the best out of our relationship even though there are times when things get all pretty messed up. Im gonna serahkan everything to Allah and InsyaAllah, everything will be fine.

PS: Get the dice rolling, the game begins now.

Currently downloading songs to my empty desktop. Super selenge, I know. My laptop is still missing, I dont know dah kena buat rolling gi sane sini. Laptop ku dah mcm pelacur! Kekekeke. Kesian.

Basically, I have nothing to blog about, really. Just that Im bored and cant sleep. Well, it's only 2am you see. Its still early for me. Actually, I dont even know whether I do have readers or am I just typing it to myself. I dont mind really, even if I have zero readers. Its ok, I prefer it that way, honestly.

My stupid media player suddenly changed to a malay song, well, Im in the jiwang mode. Wakakaka. Crap ar amalina! Im having a happy life kan kan? But dgr lagu jiwang jer teros nak pedih2. Alermak, prangai stoppit eh.
Kekeke. I miss my gfs. I miss the ones close to me. Even though they are just a phone call away, it's hard especially with everyone busy with their own lives. I shouldnt be selfish, should I? I should think about others too, so I'll just wait for them to be free. :)

Honestly, Im the kinda person who needs attention. I am NOT an attention seeker, but Im a normal human being who needs attention. I enjoy having company, I really like to be visible in the eyes of people. Not in all occassions though, only in certain. Well, I dont know how else to continue right now cos my media player is on shuffle but still wants to play malay songs. Idiot kan. Buat aku termenong2. Tsk.

Oh btw, on a happier note, Im going to a friend's wedding this Saturday with bf and other workfriends. After that, kite due nak gi dating. Yeay! :) If the plan is cancelled OR delayed OR changed OR bla3, Im gonna scream like maddd. Kekekkekeke.
K lah, I wanna repair my stupid media player k, change it to some nicer english rnb songs ke. Or maybe let it be as how it is right now. :p

PS: I really, really, really, really, really, really, really love u n miss u.

As promised for my next entry, I have some pictures for you! :)

Its been already a month past his bday but I finally got the chance to update about it. Kekeke. Sorry dear! :)

Tengok tu, dengan penuh semangat die meniup candle kat kek yg tak seberape besar tu. :p

Kwn2 die yg dtg punyelah ramai, more than what I expected. Anjat gergerl ok!

Thanks to his parents, nenek and younger siblings once again. Everything was perfectly planned & I like working with them. Leh pakat!

So that was my October. Well, there were many happenings in October but since I didnt even blog a single thing about the month besides Amran's bday, i shall not update anything about it k. I shall start fresh from November. Since I already have a desktop, my addcition to blogging almost everyday might happen once again. Happy? Not happy, dont even bother reading!

Anyway, have I already mentioned that right now, besides taking care of Fariz & Dian(they are my anak sdare btw), my mum also babysits the lil sister, Farah Adrianna? We either call her Adek or Yana and she is the reason why I never2 wanna merayap after school or even think about coming home late. She is the reason y I always dread going to work, and even refuse to sleep no matter how tired I can be. I simply love her just like my lil sister, well, actually more than how I love Dian. I just dont know why but Im so attracted to Yana. She is VERY cute. Dont believe, meh tengok.

Tell me, how can I not be eager to reach home just to see that smile on her cute small face? She smiles all the time and laughs in her cute baby laughter when I tickle her. I feed her, bathe her and also rock her to sleep everyday & this is the reason why I love her so much.
Btw, I dont hate Dian. I love her too but most probably it's because Dian's older and wiser. BUT, I still treat her the same, bawak gi kedai hari2, sampai duit aku terkopak, suap dier makan, nyanyi2 joget2 with her and everything lah kan. Both of them are cute & I love them, ok?

Ok then, its almost 4am and I need to sleep cos They are both here at 7am everyday. I have 3 hours to sleep now. N also, Im meeting bf later. Weeeee~ Gi dating, gi dating. Bestnyeee! K goodnight!

It is close to 3am now but Im not ready to sleep. Ok, confession is, I already bought a desktop so that means I can update regularly. But for now, I cant be bothered to upload pictures. Maybe next time. N i also know that my updates are short and dumb but as long as Im happy about it, I dont give a damn about what you people think.

Many things are happening right now and I cant find ways to solve them all. Sometimes I try, but things arent just working. Lucky for me, I have my family always supporting me in whatever Im doing.
Oh and also not forgetting my bf, Amran, whom I really look upon for. Thanks for everything. :)

You know, sometimes, some things are not meant to be told and Im the kind who tries to seal my problems. What you read, may not be what's really happening in my life right now.
I just hope I wont give up or even think about giving up. Cos if that happens, it will turn out bad. Real bad.
Im no special person and I do have loads of problems, loads of them that made me cry and almost made me shout my lungs out. But no matter what happens, I've never regretted any decisions Ive made so far. Everything happens for a reason, right? Maybe now's not my time, I shall be patient and wait for it.

I keep on praying everything will be back to however it was. I can still remember what happened back then on 20th June 2009.

PS: There's something really wrong. If there wasnt any, why was it so difficult to pass it to me? Y?

Im so looking forward for this week.

I just hope, really hope, everything turns out fine. It has been a miserable 1 month plus for me and I hope I will be laughing like a mad woman once again.

Pls. :(

I already bought a new desktop and will be regularly updating this dusty blog of mine starting next week ok? Sorry much.

This current song Im addicted to, even for my msg tone. Read it, understand it.

Can't count on you most of all when I really need it
It's the simple things that you do, really hurt my feelings
The more I try, the more I'm starting to see it
This can't work anymore, than you believe it

Goodbye may come as a shock
Even though I love you a lot
I've given every breath I've got
Sometimes you just gotta break down and breathe

And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

Listen...

I just don't know what the problem is, what the deal is
Was I there too much, did I move too fast, I couldn't see it?
All those promises are probably how you deal with it
I'm tired of hearing you say your innocent

Don't think I forgot
Because I really didn't care if you're lying a lot
I've given every breath I've got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe

We all make mistakes
Sometimes we do desperate things
What does it prove? NOTHING
And you never do nothing wrong

Then what took you so long, took you so long
Cuz I keep, keep hanging on, keep, keep hanging on

A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

Well, its such a nice song. Ok then, read my tweets at twitter in case u havent. Im very very active in there. Take care. :)

I cant update much cos firstly, Im in school, supposed to print lecture notes & 2ndly, I have to rush home after this.

So anyway, yesterday was Amran's birthday & I planned a surprise for him. He didnt know anything or suspected anything at all. I did everything with the help of his younger sister & brother plus his parents. We made a very good job in asking him to go home straight after work & not to merayap. His friends lied to him that one friend of his punye motor kene bikin. So being a very CARING friend, he rushed home to see what he can do to help. But little did he know that I was already hiding in his house with a cake. & then TA-DAAAA, I appeared with the cake after his friends pon sume naek rumah die.
You should have seen his priceless reaction. Kalau tahu video sey. Kakakaka.

Anyway, Alhamdulillah everything worked out well even though there were glitches here n there. His family told me that Im the first to actually do this for him. So, in his 23 years of life, he had never ever had celebrations with his family plus frens plus gf. He was very touched & got teary, super cute ah k! Kikiki. So now he knows what kind of a person I am. I do lots of surprises for the ones I love. Cos kan, I LOVE surprises too! *hinting to amran yg aku pon nak surprise jgk*. Kakakkakaka.

Ok I need to continue printing notes then back home. Happy Birthday to Amran once again. Be a good bf ok! Love u banyak2 my 999. :)))

Not all came because some had school and some were working so there were only the 5 of us.

They planned bowling so we went to E!Hub to have 2 rounds of it. After the 2 rounds, we walked to Bai's house and then took her car and then we drove to East Coast to get my McFlurry Oreo at the McDonalds drive thru. :) I then showed bai the way to a carpark (I was Bai's street directory cos I know the way around East Coast with my eyes closed. Kakakaka. ) where there aren't that many people around and we had our girls talk. Tak, bukan gossip, nie bual2 kosong jer. Betol. :p Then Bai sent me to work.

Speaking of work, I have to go get ready to work now. Mak aiieee, boring nyerrr hidop aku right now.
& I miss somebody already. :(

PS: Im smiling, aint I?

Just the 4 of us, but only went to 3 houses.

Annisa's house was the first one and I got very geram with her anak sedara. Veryyyyy kepo and noisy sangat2. There was a photo album on the table and I took it to show him the pictures. But in the end aku lah pulak kene bilang dier story2. He talked and pointed to everyone in the pictures and said "da da abah da da abah" Nonstop! Hahahaha. Cute giler. I wanted to take a photo with him but he still continued to point and dadadadadada.

2nd attempt baru menjadi but his muke like terperanjat liddat.

Annisa, Yati, Eefah & me.

Typical mcm bangla gitu kat bustop pon sempat.

We ended the day quite early as Sharifah had to catch her last bus. We sempat gossip about IVIC lah about fat people lah. Biaselah, pompan lah katekan. Kikiki. & like Annisa said, 3 hours of meetup wasnt enough. We should meet up again, but not for jalan raye lah of cos. Pape msg ok girls!

Ok, Im now contemplating whether or not I should go to work today. After they paid me $50 lesser than what I should earn last month, I cant b bothered to work anymore. Dah kene demoralised ah kirekan. HMPH. How ah?

PS: I wanna b that special someone. I wanna feel special.

I was looking at Ana's tagged profile and came across this. HAHA. Random, I know. This was from an outing with them for iftar then went Changi to play UNO and talk crap. & I wonder what's bf laughing happily about while I look blur liddat.

So anyway, I wanna upload pics from Raya Outing with Amran's NS friends. There arent that many photos cos firstly they werent the kind who loves camwhore-ing and secondly, we were tired from taking photos. So enjoy.

I can get along well with them girls even though Im the youngest cos they were all very friendly. I like! :)

We travelled from the west then to the east & I reached home close to 1am. I took Amran's friend's car with the girls most of the time but only took bike after  reaching East area. We girls prefer the car with air con & also we can gossip2 lah kan. N biaselah nie mat2 rempits nak pera saner sini kat traffic light. Nasib Amran tak, kalau tak, kepale die kene ketuk. Kakakaka. Well, actually he did pera2 jgk but didnt ride like a maniac cos he knows if he does it, Im gonna scream my lungs out. Kikiki. Dah macam mak marah anak.

Ok, enough about Raya. Now I shall talk about my meet up with Sam n Fazly the other night cos I was bored, had no plans and they planned for dinner then shisha.

The tempat was air conditioned & syiok liddat but I didnt enjoy it as much cos Amran wasnt there. :( He played soccer with his friends then slept cos he was too tired. See, Im sucha a nice gf. I didnt want him to be tired and told him to just get enough rest for work the next day.

Ok so that was my weekend & I look forward to more weekends. Especially at the end of the month. So many plans ahead. Woohooot!
Im a very happy person even though I had the most suckiest day this week. Everything's fine now & will continue to be fine.
I have to get ready now cos nak keluar jalan raye with Annisa, Eefah & Yati. YEAY semangat sey this year raye. Kakaka. WIll upload pictures with them on the next post. See ya!

PS: Have I already told the whole world how much I love Amran Ali? :)))