Im changing my blog link soon. Maybe privatizing my new blog, or just changing links.

Take care.

It's like I have so many things to update. But no words are coming out of my mind now. I simply cant think of any words to say right now.

My mind is just...

Blank.

Hmmm. Ok, I'll try typing. Maybe that will help get me the momentum to start babbling out.

Ok, the thing is, Im ending school very2 soon and Im still searching for a full time job. Insyallah, I'll get a job soon and I can finally start on my real savings & try not to be so boros. It's so hard not to be one cos I am one. The one who's always2 stopping me from spending is Insyirah ah. She always stops me from buying the things I want. Booohooo. :(

& also, Ive always not been going to work. Cos... Well, I just dont have the mood to go to work anymore lah. Just takde mood. Fullstop.

Ok, so Im done about school plus work. What now?

Someone asked me.. "How's your love life?" I just smiled and said, "Öh, everything's fine."
But, after I answered that qn, it got me thinking. Is it really fine? Is everything really okay right now? I dont know. Simply said, Im confused.
Each time I wanna update or type something here, I end up deleting it away because I just dont feel like telling the world whats happening to me.

I dont really like talking about my feelings here but right now, at this very moment, I just feel like letting everything out. Sighh.

Honestly, Im crying while typing this entry, I dont know why. I know I have caring friends around me. But I just feel like keeping everything to myself. Though I know I will definitely explode one day, Im trying so hard to be patient, to endure with everything that's happening to me. Everything's not easy on me now. With exams ard the corner, with me not attending lectures, not having any notes, not focusing & not studying.. Everything's in a mess right now.

I really feel like typing more but no, Im gonna end here. I already typed out a long post but Ive deleted most of it. Im just upset. I m tired. Im going.

PS: Think about this. Why would I even still wanna update a post on this blog, this blog URL if Ive totally given up? Hope this shows you something. Take care.

I miss you, I really do.

Though we do meet once a week or once in 2 weeks, I can never stop missing you.

I miss us too.
:(

YesYes, the title of this entry proves it all. This post is mainly about me. Okay? Not happy, then dun read lor. Simple! :D
The other day, I went out took loads of pictures but only posting some of it here. Cos the rest are not so important & I dont feel like updating it here yet.

Cantik kan the clouds. Time tu was tgh nak sunset. Lawa giler lah sey! I like!

I really miss something in this picture. No, not my watch, & no, not my make up bag, definitely.

Actually, I was planning to post more pictures, but mate saye tak mengizinkan ah. Ahaha. Anyway, takot lah pulak korg meluat tgk byk2 gbr aku. Kekeke.

I've been sick these few days, coughing like mad, sneezing like hell but dont worry, Im still strong okay! :) Went to the doc just now with Amran & I got 2 days MC. Ive not been working a lot lately. Either Im on MC or I'll get someone to cover my shift for me. Since Im coughing like mad, I obviously cant come to work kan, if not, I'll die! :S

I know I've not been updating a lot lately, partly because my desktop murdered itself for 5 days, but also because I've been out almost everyday nowadays.
But sadly, no, not with Amran. I do miss him A LOT. I met him only once in 2 weeks? Yes, that's how packed our lives are at the moment. It's okay. I just hope everything goes smoothly once I end school. I''ve got many proejcts, tests, assignments anyway. & exam's coming so I guess it's the best if I focus on school first. After graduating, then can fikir about lup2 nie sume k. Hehehe.

I think about you night & day, rain or shine.

Dulu aku kau sayangi
Dibelai penuh kasih sayang.
Kini, tiada lagi
Kau tinggalkan aku seorang.

Usah merubah segalanya
Kau kini jauh berbeza
Aku disingkirkan ke tepi
Terbiar, bagai, tunggul mati

Terasa dihatiku
Kemesraanmu kian jauh
Terasa di jiwaku
Kasih sayangmu dahlah rapuh

Kau biar ku sepi
Ku ditinggal sendiri
Bagaikan
Digantung tak bertali

Dulu, aku bersuara
Tak sanggup menahan derita
Dari masih sabar diri
Bebaskan.. Aku.. Pergi..

But no, I dislike the last line cos I dont think by letting someone go solves every problem we're facing. I find this song VERY nice. I love the song & I can keep on listening to it every single day. Fyi people, Im actually a very very patient person. Tho I've been going thru hell lately, Im still standing strong. :D Btw, the song is by spin, title dier terasa jiwa tersiksa. Ye ye, emo skejap jek tkkn tkleh kot? HAHA.

PS:  Im not willing to let this go. I cant afford to do so. So, please, prove it to me. Please?

Yes, my desktop is still alive. The HP technician came and found out that the whole motherboard was faulty. Dont know why.

So anyway, this update is just to tell you people Im still alive. So yeah. :D
Im coughing so badly right now and my ther's blood. I shall go to the doctor one day though Im very afraid what the result might be. :S

N to you, like I said, DO NOT blame others but yourself if anything were to happen one day. You've crossed the line. Im sorry. Will update more next time.

Im going out, with a friend. Take care. :)