I've created my new blog alrdy. & it's not under onsugar. It's somwhere else.
So I've decided to update on my new one. I wont be sharing it here though. If you are a friend of mine, ask me the new link thru twitter or facebook. Ok? Good.

Kk, I hafta go now. Take care.

Im changing my blog link soon. Maybe privatizing my new blog, or just changing links.

 

Take care.

It's like I have so many things to update. But no words are coming out of my mind now. I simply cant think of any words to say right now.

My mind is just...

Blank.

Hmmm. Ok, I'll try typing. Maybe that will help get me the momentum to start babbling out.

 

Ok, the thing is, Im ending school very2 soon and Im still searching for a full time job. Insyallah, I'll get a job soon and I can finally start on my real savings & try not to be so boros. It's so hard not to be one cos I am one. The one who's always2 stopping me from spending is Insyirah ah. She always stops me from buying the things I want. Booohooo. :(

& also, Ive always not been going to work. Cos... Well, I just dont have the mood to go to work anymore lah. Just takde mood. Fullstop.

Ok, so Im done about school plus work. What now?

 

Someone asked me.. "How's your love life?" I just smiled and said, "Öh, everything's fine."
But, after I answered that qn, it got me thinking. Is it really fine? Is everything really okay right now? I dont know. Simply said, Im confused.
Each time I wanna update or type something here, I end up deleting it away because I just dont feel like telling the world whats happening to me.

I dont really like talking about my feelings here but right now, at this very moment, I just feel like letting everything out. Sighh.

Honestly, Im crying while typing this entry, I dont know why. I know I have caring friends around me. But I just feel like keeping everything to myself. Though I know I will definitely explode one day, Im trying so hard to be patient, to endure with everything that's happening to me. Everything's not easy on me now. With exams ard the corner, with me not attending lectures, not having any notes, not focusing & not studying.. Everything's in a mess right now.

 

I really feel like typing more but no, Im gonna end here. I already typed out a long post but Ive deleted most of it. Im just upset. I m tired. Im going.

PS: Think about this. Why would I even still wanna update a post on this blog, this blog URL if Ive totally given up? Hope this shows you something. Take care.

I miss you, I really do.

Though we do meet once a week or once in 2 weeks, I can never stop missing you.

 

I miss us too.
:(

YesYes, the title of this entry proves it all. This post is mainly about me. Okay? Not happy, then dun read lor. Simple! :D
The other day, I went out took loads of pictures but only posting some of it here. Cos the rest are not so important & I dont feel like updating it here yet.

 

Cantik kan the clouds. Time tu was tgh nak sunset. Lawa giler lah sey! I like!

 

I really miss something in this picture. No, not my watch, & no, not my make up bag, definitely.

 

 

Actually, I was planning to post more pictures, but mate saye tak mengizinkan ah. Ahaha. Anyway, takot lah pulak korg meluat tgk byk2 gbr aku. Kekeke.

I've been sick these few days, coughing like mad, sneezing like hell but dont worry, Im still strong okay! :) Went to the doc just now with Amran & I got 2 days MC. Ive not been working a lot lately. Either Im on MC or I'll get someone to cover my shift for me. Since Im coughing like mad, I obviously cant come to work kan, if not, I'll die! :S

I know I've not been updating a lot lately, partly because my desktop murdered itself for 5 days, but also because I've been out almost everyday nowadays.
But sadly, no, not with Amran. I do miss him A LOT. I met him only once in 2 weeks? Yes, that's how packed our lives are at the moment. It's okay. I just hope everything goes smoothly once I end school. I''ve got many proejcts, tests, assignments anyway. & exam's coming so I guess it's the best if I focus on school first. After graduating, then can fikir about lup2 nie sume k. Hehehe.

 

I think about you night & day, rain or shine.

 

Dulu aku kau sayangi
Dibelai penuh kasih sayang.
Kini, tiada lagi
Kau tinggalkan aku seorang.

Usah merubah segalanya
Kau kini jauh berbeza
Aku disingkirkan ke tepi
Terbiar, bagai, tunggul mati

Terasa dihatiku
Kemesraanmu kian jauh
Terasa di jiwaku
Kasih sayangmu dahlah rapuh

Kau biar ku sepi
Ku ditinggal sendiri
Bagaikan
Digantung tak bertali

Dulu, aku bersuara
Tak sanggup menahan derita
Dari masih sabar diri
Bebaskan.. Aku.. Pergi..

But no, I dislike the last line cos I dont think by letting someone go solves every problem we're facing. I find this song VERY nice. I love the song & I can keep on listening to it every single day. Fyi people, Im actually a very very patient person. Tho I've been going thru hell lately, Im still standing strong. :D Btw, the song is by spin, title dier terasa jiwa tersiksa. Ye ye, emo skejap jek tkkn tkleh kot? HAHA.

PS:  Im not willing to let this go. I cant afford to do so. So, please, prove it to me. Please?

Yes, my desktop is still alive. The HP technician came and found out that the whole motherboard was faulty. Dont know why.

So anyway, this update is just to tell you people Im still alive. So yeah. :D
Im coughing so badly right now and my ther's blood. I shall go to the doctor one day though Im very afraid what the result might be. :S

N to you, like I said, DO NOT blame others but yourself if anything were to happen one day. You've crossed the line. Im sorry. Will update more next time.

Im going out, with a friend. Take care. :)

Just now, went out with the BF to get his VERY belated bday present. HAHAHA. His bday was on the 22nd October sey padehal. Sorry yer. :p
So I bought for him a shoe. Just like what I promised him ler. BUTTTT, dier tu pon, rupenyer cerewet jugak sey! After hours hunting, carik nike, adidas, everlast, cat, ecco, gola, vans & many2 more, he finally found the one.

It looks almost similar to this. Not exactly ah. About the same jer.

 

The real one laen siket ah. The lacoste nyer logo lagik lawa siket and the tapak lagik style siket. But nie just an example jer. It wasnt that mahal lah. $119. Ok ler tu kan utk orang yang dikasihi. HAHAHA. So, ingat eh you. Bday i lagik 2 bulan. i nak surprise & nak present okay! Kekekekekke. Muke tebal nyer aku! :D

 

Ok, then, I was bored, looked through my photo albums in my comp and wanted to share. Haha, sumpah aku tkde keje.

 

Tthis picture during my D&D when I received my lucky draw present. Hahhahah. Muke happy giler eh dpt present. Padehal stakat dpt fondue set ajer. & that is Daniel, my OM. Ermmm. Mata dier maner? HAHAHAHA.

 

 

 

Nie pulak, Adrianna (yana) anak sdare kesygan aku! :D She's 6 months old and she is EXTREMELY cute okay. She cried whenever I leave the house. Kadang2 mcm tknk gi skolah jer just to be with her. & whenever I wake up, she will smile dgn tkde gigi & if I just walk pass & tak dokong dier, she will cry non-stop. Kadang2 nk kencing pon tak jadik sey pasal kesian! Hahaha.

 

 

& ini pulak gbr with Amran's lil sister & 2 cousins. We went cycling last 3 months tak salah. Hahaha. Outdated, i know. Gerek lah cycling ngan dorg. Adek Amran tk tahu cycle so we had a hard time to teach her. Tapi cute ah. Hehe.

 

Oh and yeah, speaking about cycling, tmrw me, Syirah & Ana & maybe Dayah going cycling. :DDDD I loike! Im meeting Syirah first then baru the rest. Si mak nenek tu teringin nak mkn ban mian lah pulak. Tsk. Will upload pics in the next update. Confirm byk gbr mepek2 nye.

& this Sunday, maybe coming over to Amran's house cos mak dier jempot datang. I dun mind coming cos I love his nenek. Cute tau. I can come his house everyday sey just to jumpe nenek dier. But I do miss my late-grandmother alot whenever I see her. :(

K lah, nk start movie marathon. Assalamualaikum semue! :)

 

PS: It happened, twice already.

 Last Sunday, I was home alone and I texted the gf where she was. She was having her lessons and then she was free. So, I decided to meet her. She gave me a list of activites on what we can do. I then tried asking Syirah & Dayah out as well but Syirah was lazy & Dayah was out with her fam so it was just the 2 of us.

But then, since we decided to go karaoke, I called Amran and asked whether he wanted to join. So him, yg takleh dgr pasal karaoke, agreed. So we went to Bedok Central's CashStudio.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It seems like Amran is singing in most pictures kan. Haha. Pasal whenever we snap is time dier tgh nyanyi. So then after that, we had dinner at McDonalds and terserempak with Kak pah. Hahahaha. Die bwk plastic bag NTUC penuh ngan HL. Kekekeke. So after dinner, me & Ana took cab home while Amran took his bike. So that was my Sunday.

For this week, nothing much happened. Just that I seldom go to work now cos I simply cant be bothered to work there anymore. Dah seriously takde hati ah nak keje sane. Duno why. Oh and yesterday, went Simpang with Ana and then there was an accident involving a car n a motor. The motor terseret and the screeching sound was very loud. Everyone got up their seats to see. Luckily, the ambulance came fast enough. So I really hope the motorist okay.

Hmm. Ok then. Bye.

 

Why is it like when everything's okay, then the next minute, everything is so messed up?
Why is it like you treat me oh so nicely yesterday & u're treating me like you dont know me today?
Why do I sometimes feel like I am nobody & I have nobody?
How do I not feel 'lost' if u're not helping at all?
WHY ARE U BECOMING LIKE THIS ALL OVER AGAIN???

Look, Ive been patient for a week. I changed SO MUCH and obeyed everything you said. What about YOU?
What have YOU done so far besidesthe 3 things u always do? WHAT ELSE HAVE YOU DONE?
URGHHHH.

I aint a stranger ah ok. If you're not ready to commit, then DONT. No one's forcing you.

We went cycling at Pasir Ris last week. But the thing is, we camwhored more than we cycled. Hahahahaha. Well, enjoy k. N DONT LAUGH at the later pics!

 

 

 

 

 

 

We decided to do jump shots. & these were wat we got. AGAIN i repeat, DONT LAUGH!

 

Ini i was already in the air ok. Tapi npk mcm edited eh. Padehal tak tau. Nie ori nye pic.

 

 

i look very bloody panjang.

 

 

 

 

HAHAHAHA! Nie mcm aku tolak pokok kan. The girl with superpowerrrrr.

 

 

& all I need is a guitar. Dah leh jadi rockstar okay.

 

I dont get thisssss pose lah syirah! Hahaha.

 

Even I cant stop laughing lah at some of the pics. Ader lagi mepek2 but malas nak upload. Then after dah return basikal, we continued camwhoring ah per lagik. We will nvr get tired of taking pics. Especially funny ones. Favourite! :D

 

 

Ok, for this pic kan, Syirah said I look tall... So, she wants to do the exact same pose, BUTTTT, look.

 

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! She looks bloody short instead kan kan kan???? HAHahahaha. S-E-L-E-N-G-E!

 

Okay, dah, enough pics for today. Will upload pics from the meetup with Ana & Amran in the next post ok. For now, I wanna eat my boyono. YESSSS, I got a boyono! :D Bye people!

PS: I love you, you love me, I kentut, you bau tak? Kikikikiki.

 

We watched Alvin and the chipmunks 2. It was really really cute and I really love the show. I was laughing most of the time and I just cant stop going awwww, ccute nyerrrrrrrr all the way. The chippettes pon cute lah ok. Tkleh tahan! Gerammm!

After dah tengok wayang, we went to East Coast to kirekan macam chill ah gitu. Hahahahaha. Ok, then we went to Toa Payoh cos Amran had to do something. (Baik kan I, I tak blg the whole world kenape u nak balek. :p) Then we went back to Tampines then snap3 amek gbr before we proceeded home. Sebelom amek gbr, Amran told me stories which made me laugh non-stop pasal his facial expression priceless lor. He did the actions sume super funny ah then cannot tahan then laugh ah. Till now, I rmbred the stories he told me then I can laugh alone, in my room. Yeah, scary, I know. :D

 

 

 

 

 

 

 Well, Im still trying to figure out how to edit his gbr motor. I used to have photoshop but since I dont have it nw, susah lah nak edit. Lagi2 nak paste gbr motor lame die side by side with motor baru. Susah tau u. So you need to give me a lot of time k.

 

 

 

Okay, so now. I wanna upload gambars of me n syirah out cycling just now. Will update about it in the next post. And also, I will tell you guys a secret in the next post. Stay tuned to find out more about it. See ya! :D

PS: Happy 4th honey! :) I really love everything now. Serious. Kan bagos, hari2 happy. I loike! :DDDD